J left to go back to school yesterday. It's a long 12 hour drive and I feel like I hold my breath until I know she's safely there. Less than an hour after she got there she received an Auburn weather alert. Due to an ice storm that's expected to hit the area tonight, classes have been canceled for Monday. So, I guess everyone will be able to get an early start on the preparations for the Auburn-Oregon game. War Eagle!
I finished reading Unbroken, a remarkable story about a man's survival in a Japanese POW camp during WWII. I highly recommend this book, but I had to put it down at times because the horror of what he lived through was almost overwhelming. In the last part of the book, Louie is heavily drinking as he tries to escape the reality of what he experienced. After reluctantly attending a Billy Graham revival, he remembers how he promised God that he would dedicate his life to Him if he would save him from dying on a raft in the Pacific Ocean. Thus begins his life's turnaround.
After reading this book, I think it would be easy for Louie to dispel of the idea of God. How could a kind and loving God allow anyone to suffer as Louie did? I am still struggling with regaining my faith in God. After B died, I was convinced that there could not be a God. It didn't make sense to me. B was only 19 and just beginning his adult life. He truly was one of the best people I know....so kind, so smart, so loving, so funny. And he suffered through so much with leukemia. Why did Jesus save people who were sick, raise people from the dead when asked by their loved ones.....but our fervent prayers of B's healing were unanswered? I am still, still struggling with these questions. And I still, still miss my son so much that it physically hurts.
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